mental health

I have ocd I feel like I'm in my clean pupple if someone touched me or touched anything of my stuff i might cry i really get upset and frustrated and disgusted and i want to hit that person really hard for just touching Just because iam not sure that this person is clean But on the other hand I just feel like that with my family I don't really feel that with my friends Maybe my family is really disgusting and i don't have a problem? Can someone tell me if they had a similar experience

Struggling with my mental and physical health. I can't look after myself and so I still have to live with my family. My mum struggles being my carer and criticises me for not getting better, when I'm doing my best but it's just not improving. I'd do anything to get better, it's not a choice to be this way, but everyone (particularly my mum and grandparents I live with) just thinks I'm not trying hard enough. I don't want to be told it gets better. My mental health crisis since 2019 won't end, l've tried everything. Nothing's worked. I’m hopeless. I was wrongly sectioned in 2024 and sent to a psych ward (I wasn’t a danger to myself or others, just needed gentle help and support at home) which destroyed me. I’m hopeless. :(