burnout

I'm extremely exhausted. What should I do studying never ends, and I have been doing all the possible things in my hands for a year , but not enough. I'm so far to reach that ig .even 12 hours studying feels like nothing to me like i did nothing nothing nothing. Even sleeping just for 2 hours each day and some days i skip that too but still not ENOUGH people are so much better than me always why i should be the loser why should I have a bad ending. Why am i nothing. I just want to escape, but even though I can't do it

How can a man get some peace of mind without feeling that I'm behind or that I'm wasting my time? Every single time i just try to unplug my mind and just chill for a bit, even slowing down for a while i always end up feeling bad, worse than ever, feeling like i should be doing more and more, i should be working now, i should be making more money, etc like I don't deserve to take a break Even tho i have so freaking much going on with my life lately, and while being a one man army for years, i really need to find some peace

Hi, this is my first time using this app, and I'm hoping for some advices or literally anything. I'm a high performance athlete and i feel like my parents and coach want too much from me and I can't give the desired results. I always try my best. It doesn't matter how much i train I get worse, but they want more and more. They only want the medals and just ignore the fact that I feel exhausted emotionally and physically. I know sports are a big roller-coaster but it's just hard. I been doing it for many years but this is different, i have really bad thoughts and i realized i torture myself. I always think that i can't do it. When i talk about this to my parents they just joke about it, f**ing laugh at me...like some little kids. They say i just want attention. I feel lost, like a fool...