relationship struggle

So hey ig i don't really understand the purpose of this app i just wanna talk anyway it feels a bit cringe , my pr is i love a girl from last year she was always cold to me and thats fine i can deal with that but recently she changed and i found out im emotionally dead inside I cant show any emotions I don't even know how to talk to her properly i just dc about anything except her

Negativity is sucking the life out of me right now, Nothing is going how I want it to be, and nothing is actually going right, even the confession I’ve been waiting on for so long, everything just got worst after it, and out of everyone I went and fell in love with someone who suffers from BPD, and guess what? I’m suffering from the same damn thing, and we are just here ruining eachother lifes, atp I think love is never meant for me tbh.