negativity

Negativity is sucking the life out of me right now, Nothing is going how I want it to be, and nothing is actually going right, even the confession I’ve been waiting on for so long, everything just got worst after it, and out of everyone I went and fell in love with someone who suffers from BPD, and guess what? I’m suffering from the same damn thing, and we are just here ruining eachother lifes, atp I think love is never meant for me tbh.

How to be happy living around a lot of negative things? I cant see light in my life and this is blocking myself, no more hope and peace inside my heart. Im trying to handle all the emotions but its damaging my health