depression

Hey , so I'm new here i kind of need some new friends coz I'm dealing with depression and just got hurt by my best friend because of her bf and it was my biggest heartbreak ngl Idi what im saying this i feel like I'm seeking attention while I'm not anyway if you ever need a new friend , thanks

i don't know where to start and what to talk about its like there is a lot of problems and there none at the same time somtimes i'm thinking why am i depressed for what yes i know i'm always harsh on myself i always blame me for everything even if its not my faulte apologizing every single time just to keep things calm and the worst idea that gets me every night is WHO IS GONNA LIKE AN UGLY BORING UNSOCIAL GUY LIKE ME