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It’s like I’m punishing myself for something and I don’t get the reason. My job is my dream job, I don’t pay rent, I’m independent, I have great friends. My only problem is that I need to lose some weight and that’s exactly what I’m sabotaging. I eat healthy but I always add something “bad” during the day or I eat late in the evening even when I’m not hungry and that’s what is keeping me from my goal. I feel anger all the time, it’s exhausting. And this thing with food and weightloss makes me even angrierrrrr. Please share your opinions

I have prblm that I don't like seeing or talking to ma dad even his existence is annoying I don't hate him but whenever I see him I become an aggressive person unlike when he's not around me I become very quiet person

Idk how to even start writing, im under psychotropics and feeling so annoyed and mad, idk how to live with my family anymore it keeps becoming draining more and even tho i left for good ( i study in another city), but everybody is trashtalking each other my mom talks shit behind my dad's and bro's back my bro does the same and my dad isnt even present to talk or react (he talks to no one), they don't wanna develop im in a very serious state of my life and i really need stability to achieve my goal but the distractions are getting worse everytime even meds arent calming the anger i have, i truly dont know what to do in this case, i can go back to dorms where i have a really bad entourage and go back to bad habits or stay here and keep getting my brain drained it's my future and i can't find a solution or decide whether i stay here or leave again please give me a neutral solution